Reuniting..... It feels SO good

I don't consider myself a bi-polar personality, though I feel at times I exhibit signs of this. But I can tell you how my brain works, or doesn't, depending on what you know and think of me.

I'm "reconnecting" with a long lost relative. My Niece Susan. Before August of this year, I honestly cannot remember the last time I saw her. I THINK it may have been the summer of '83. Ahhhh, we were both SO young. Actually, we are not far apart in age, though I'm sure she would prefer to say I'm the OLD Aunt of hers. I, however, prefer to think of us both as "thirtysomethings". So I shall!

I'm now getting to know Susan. Actually, I don't know if I ever really knew Susan. I don't think our paths crossed much in life. Maybe a half day here or there throughout our lives. I really don't know and sadly cannot remember. I just know I felt a total stranger to her, and indeed to all my Nieces.

But miracles do occur and Susan and I met again. Strangers and maybe both hesitant and wondering what the other was like. For me, meeting Susan and getting to know her has brought so much joy into my life. She is one of those unique people. Someone so incredible, beautiful, talented, intellectual, loving, kind, caring, on and on I could go.

And you ask, where does the "bi-polar" come into play?

My brain goes something like this....(read jubilant) " I cannot believe how lucky I am to be getting to know Susan". (brain then says (read depressed), " It is SO sad that so many years went by without us knowing one another". (happy brain pipes up), "But at least we DID meet and are getting to know one another".

Back and forth. That is my brain. That is how my brain thinks on almost everything in life. No wonder I don't sleep at night. So much to THINK about.

But of this I am certain. No matter our achievements or our faults, our life mistakes and life learnings, I have found a most incredible friend!! And lucky for me, she happens to be my Niece.