Three Months From Today

Is my birthday! The importance of this? Well, I'm still around, but this is one of THOSE birthday's. A 'big' number birthday. I've had a problem even thinking about it for a couple months. Now it is three months away and I'm still in panic mode. It simply cannot be! However did I get to be this age? Yes, I know all the people saying, 'it's better than the alternative' but that doesn't help. I'm talking about ME. Me who as those who know me would tell you, has never grown up. I'm still waiting to hit my 'grown up' stage. I look at others my age and THEY look adult, they've 'grown up'. Then I look at me! What's up with this? My Christmas picture was moi' holding teddy bears!

I need support for this! It is simply something I cannot think about. Maybe having written about it, will ease the panic?

The other thing is that I want a big party for this monumental birthday. Two problems. One, I don't know many people, and the second is since I don't tell my age, how can I have a party to celebrate the big event?