A New Beginning

Doesn't mean I'm not going crazy. Emotions are and have been running all over the board.

I bought a home. A condo. It has all happened so fast. Looked at a place a week ago yesterday, offered on Monday, was countered on Tuesday. Accepted the counter offer Tuesday and close April 11th.

It is one thing to talk to your partner about a separation, it is another to actually do so. When you are separating from your soul mate, physically if not mentally, it is a killer. We console one another with the fact I'll be a few minutes away as well as a phone call. That he and I will be over to one another's places whenever. That if things don't go well, I'll move back.

All the psychological words said to ease the pain of reality.

Some days are better than others. Today is not one of them. It is so hard to imagine my not being met at the door by my cat, Tippy. (He is Joe's cat so I can't up and bring him with me). Little things we take for granted are what hurt the most. Reading the morning papers together. Laughing at something we read.

Having someone to look at, grin at, be pissed at. Little things... they are what end up being the things that make me cry so many tears I didn't know I had the tears within me.

Anguish......